I'm sorry I haven't updated in far too long.
So much has been going on..
Including boy troubles, family problems, after-school activities, and dealing with the girl who stole my iPod.


This will be a long post (but no time for pictures, sorry)

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I guess in the end,
people become the people
they promised they'd never be

sometimes you have to forget what you feel
and remember what you deserve

say anything;
but say what you mean

depression is only reached
the instant your mind rejects
the most basic of instincts;
the need to survive at all costs

no matter how bad things are at any moment,
no moment lasts, good or bad, time moves on
because it has to, and so do you

remember the people you meet in life
& don't be ashamed to miss them

a wose man once said you can have anything in life
if you will sacrifice everything else for it.
What he meant is nothing comes without a price
So before you go into battle, you better decide
how much you're willing to lose.

too often, going after what feels good
means letting go of what you know is right
and letting someone in means abandoning the walls
you spent a lifetime building

boundaries don't keep other people out,
they fence you in,
so you can waste you life drawing lines,
or you can live your life crossing them

the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely,
because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith
that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true

the problem with secrets --
like misery, they love company

I didn't need you to tell me you loved me
I just needed you to accept that I loved you

if my silence doesn't tell you anything,
my words are meaningless

here's to you;
hope that someday you'll realize
I really did care

maybe sometimes you have to lose who you were
to find out who you are

one day I hope everyone will realize
it's not about being perfect, its about being happy

most people don't know who they are,
that's why they lie;
they're afraid someone else
will figure it out before they do

if you're not willing to look stupid,
you don't deserve to be in love

maybe some people aren't meant
to stay in our lives forever
maybe some just pass through,
to teach us a lesson

I wish I could tell you how I really feel
and I wish I knew how you'd react

don't drown yourself in old regrets,
the heaviness will steal away your breath

sieze the day, or die regretting the time you lost

stop whining about not being "pretty"
or "rich" or "smart" enough;
there's always going to be someone
who's seemingly better than you
& theres always going to be someone
who would kill for what you have

he knew all the right things to say
& he knew how to hold her in his arms just right
but it turned out to be nothing more
than a well-rehearsed script

just when life gets better
God says, "Here fucker;
deal with this shit."

life is full of risks;
take them.
you'll never know what could
have happened if you dont

what you mean is so lost in between
what you're thinking and how you feel

if everything happened when & how we wanted it to,
nothing would be worth waiting for

people lie because they're scared of the truth,
but I'd rather know for certain
than live my life on a possibility

there's a blacktop road with a fading yellow line,
it'll take you back to a place,
but it can't take you back in time

at the end of the day, faith is a funny thing,
it turns up when you don't really expect it

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I've just got my heart broken, so, just a warning, this update will reflect my feelings at the moment.

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The next time you think you're falling in love,
smash your head into the wall, it'll hurt less in the end

with one last kiss, one last feel
wounds you know will never heal,
but you'll take him back,
despite the goodbyes;
you're desperate for love
and a sucker for lies

someone please help me out
I never meant to take this so far
now I've fallen way too hard
take a long step back
to the days when I was younger
decisions never mattered all this much

& I sit at the computer, waiting for you to get on
but then you do, and I realize it doesn't matter;
you don't talk to me, and I can't talk to you
because I'm too afraid

want my advice?
stay mad as long as you can;
once you're not mad anymore, it hurts.
it hurts like hell & once it hurts that bad,
you can't make yourself mad anymore

sometimes I feel like the world
is just waiting to jump at me
with a sign that says,
'Hah! And you thought he loved you.'

the hardest thing about growning up is learning
that you have to do what's best for you;
even if it means breaking someones heart--
even your own

the worst part of being lied to
is realizing you weren't worth the truth

I just want to get inside your head
so I can see how you feel about me
it's all I wonder about lately
all I want to know is what you see

break me now, baby
'cause it might be my last memory of you

it's eating me like cancer.
i need to know the answer.
It's a simple yes or no;
should I love you or let you go?

sometimes, the hardest things to leave behind
were the things you never had in the first place

in order to move on, you must know
why you felt the way you did
and why you no longer need to feel it

it's not up to me anymore;
if you want me in your life,
you'll find a way to put me there

you aren't going to be his first, his last, or his only;;
he's loved before, he will again

a person can only run from their feelings for so long
before they have to come to terms with
what's in their heart

i finally learned whart life's all about;
hanging on when your heart's had enough
and giving more when you wanted to give up

she cries herself to sleep so that she can dream of him
& she dedicated every tear to everytime he made her smile

so once again, I feel my heart break
over something that was only in my head
but don't forget,
I meant every word I should've left unsaid

there's always going to be that guy
that no matter what happens between you two,
no matter how long you go without talking,
you just never stop loving him

and I'm blasting my music so I won't hear my thoughts
but the lyrics just remind me of what I'm trying to forget;
how did you get all these people to sing about you anyway?

even though they try to convince me that it's his loss,
deep down, I know that it's mine, too.

it's just how she lives;
loving all the wrong people
and wishing all the wrong things

you can't change who people are
without destroying who they were

there's a point in your life when you get tired of trying
to make everyone happy and trying to fix everything
when you finally decide to quit;
it's not giving up, it's realzing
that you don't need certain people
and the bullshit they bring to your life

if there's one thing I know, it's loving and losing
but you never really lose until you stop fighting

& she says she's over him,
but whenever she sees him
with another girl,
her heart breaks a little more

this silence hurts me more
than anything you could say

Ahh, I wrote a whole long entry, atleast thirty quotes, spend over an hour typing them up, and it took me to the log in page when I hit submit.

I'd redo it, but I need to get to bed, school tomorrow.

I don't think xanga likes me very much, or doesn't want me to update.

I just wanted to apologize for not updating lately. I've been going through alot recently, with school starting tomorrow, and problems with this guy. And since I've spent the past few days crying, I'm really in the mood for quotes now, so expect a very long entry very soon.